I don't know why...
This entry was posted on 9/8/2008 2:16 PM and is filed under uncategorized.
...I have such a hard time accepting the fact that God loves me and is not "against" me. I start moving in a direction - and at the first sign of trouble, then I just throw my hands in the air and say "woe is me."
I often carry around this defeatist attitude that God would never allow me to be truly happy and fulfilled in my daily life - because I don't deserve it.
The truth is, I don't deserve it.
The greater truth is - it doesn't matter whether I deserve it or not!!!
Check out the last part of Romans 8:
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? " - Romans 8:28-33
If that doesn't convince you...look at Jesus' words from the Sermon on the Mount:
"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!" -Matthew 7:9-11
Just because I don't understand the circumstances - that doesn't mean God isn't working things in my favor, or for my good.
So, when I run around with this defeatist attitude - what is the real position of my heart? Is it frustration that God isn't giving me what I want? Or, is it my own lack of faith in what His word says?!?
Oh me of little faith! Lord, help my unbelief!!! (Mark 9)